Two sweet babies

We found out on Wednesday at our ultrasound that both little twin boys had recently passed away.  It was not quite what we were hoping for, but luckily it was what we were preparing ourselves for.  I delivered them yesterday and Dan and I had a little time with them.  It was harder than we could have prepared ourselves for but pretty sweet too.  We decided to name them after our Dads who we think are pretty great guys.  It just seemed really perfect.  Carter Callis Murphy and Bennett Darrell Murphy have changed us for the better in just a few months.  We are better people because of the prayers we have felt and the service we and our kids have seen over the last few months.  Mason frequently asks who is bringing dinner :) (yes, I am a little embarrassed to admit that, but it also makes me laugh a lot) and comments about how nice each person is to serve us.  We don't feel like we have been denied any blessings because there has been plenty of joy in the middle of all of this.  We are grateful for the peace we have felt the entire time.  We are so grateful we had our two wonderful boys to come home to last night.  I know too many amazingly wonderful women and men that have been in this same situation and have no baby to go home to.  Our hearts are even more tender where those families are concerned.  We want to thank you all for your constant prayers and texts, emails, Facebook messages, dinners, babysitting, being my servants, and all the other things you have done.  We are so grateful for our families who have traveled and taken time out of their busy lives to come help make ours easier.  I'm so grateful for my sisters and sisters-in-law especially.  We are so grateful for those who traveled from Alaska for a vacation this week... just in time to care for our boys when all this happened :).  We are doing well.  Don't worry about us (you can worry a little if you want cuz I sure do like the calls and texts :)) because we know what we need to know to get through this.  Grief and sadness are impossible to avoid, but gratitude is a pretty good medication for it all so it's okay.  So, we are going to carry on feeling whatever emotions come our way.  If we don't look sad enough, it's because we are feeling happy.  If we look too down, it's because we feel a bout of sadness that will hopefully be replaced by peace shortly after.  If we look like we are laughing, it's because laughing feels really good laways.  If you catch us with some tears, just help me clean up my mascara after and don't look at Dan (he won't want you to know).  We love you all and thanks again. Dana and Dan