Our New Adventure

Well, it has been emotional to say the least, at the little Murphy household, and probably all around the households of friends and family of the Murphy household.  It all starts in October.  In October I was 10 weeks along and had a miscarriage.  We had been hoping for a baby for awhile and it was sad to  think of starting again.  So, obviously, we were very sad and dissapointed, but know this is something most women experience during their child bearing years so we were okay with it.  Fast forward to Wednesday, March 28.  I am 12 weeks pregnant.  I have horrible stomach pain most of the day and based on other circumstances am 100 % sure I have started the process of miscarrying again.  The midwives agree that I am most likely miscarrying and I decide to just stay home and take care of it.  So much sadness.  Wondering what is wrong and planning to move forward with the tests to see what is happening.  We decide I need to go see the midwife in the morning to just make sure I am okay because my abdomen was really sore.  We get to the midwife's office and chat about what will happen for awhile.  Before we go any further she checks to see if there is a heartbeat.  Immediately she says we have a heartbeat.  I assumed it was my own and she told me it was the baby's.  I am completely overcome with emotion.  Dan sits there in shock.  Then of course, the wonder of why I am bleeding so much if I have a baby.  My midwife set up an appt. for an ultrasound for the next hour.  The ultrasound tech was the sweetest, most wonderful, happy woman ever.  I was feeling very nervous and emotional and she was just what I needed.  She pulled up that sweet little baby on the screen and we were both feeling quite emotional and happy and excited and in love.  After checkin the little one out for awhile, she slowly moved over to the other one.  YES!!  You read it, the other one.  2 babies quickly popped into view and our hearts melted double, and of course, more sobbing from me.  I wasn't looking at Dan much, but I feel quite confident that there may have been some teary-ness going on behind me too.  I cannot confirm that however. 

So, we quickly discovered that the bleeding was from the large amount of blood in the uterus.  It is pulling the baby's amniotic sac away from the uterine wall.  This is obviously concerning and the reason I am allowed to walk around a bit and that's about all.  The ultrasound tech, a twin herself, couldn't stop tearing up either.  We just checked out our babies as they played together.  She was not able to find a separation between the two, which means they are likely in the same sac.  This is not ideal at all.  This will provide a whole new set of concerns so we are really hoping we see one at the next ultrasound.  Right now, we are just dealing with the concern at hand.  So, there is a chance we could lose 1 baby, 2 babies, or keep them both....we are going for the latter option :).  We love these babies and really want them to make it here.  So, please pray for the Murphy family.  We hope this will be a long journey for us.  We know that whoever is meant to be on earth with us will be....we just really hope it is these 2 little babies.  So, that is our story right now.  We just get to wait it out and see if my body resolves this problem, which I happen to believe it will because it's been a pretty good body to me :).  We will keep you all posted on this blog so I don't have to call everyone when there is some new info.  Thank you all for your prayers so far, and the prayers to come (they better keep coming!).  We can't believe how helpful everyone is and how willing to serve.  I have 2 sisters-in-law coming next week to do everything for me and my kids since I can't.  You want a slice of humility....be forced to sit and let other ladies come into your wreck of a home and bring you dinner and watch your kids.  Yep, it's pretty much working like it's suppposed to I think.  I feel sufficiently like all of the "good" I have done is quickly going to be passed up and I will forever be in debt to most of the people in my life.  My husband is the best thing ever and is making me look bad really.  He is truly wonder woman....and I'm pretty sure he would take that as a compliment right now.  He has to do every single little thing, and he is.  I'm grateful he wants these babies as bad as I do because he is totally willing.  I do however, think he almost cried when I told him Suzie (my bro's wife) would be coming on Monday morning.  I think he knows how good women are at helping things run and he felt some serious relief.  Anyway, I will keep you posted.  We love you all!!!